Saturday, September 12, 2009

"I am..."

It's raining.
And while I hear the rain crashing hard against the roof, I'm thinking.
Thinking of who I am. I was once asked this question by a teacher during class. She just asked us, 'who are you?'
The question by itself seems odd and sort of obvious. I mean, who am I? Lie De Vin, daah. (a.k.a my real name). But when I really come down to it, I'm not my name. My name was chosen by my parents, therefore I can't be something someone else decided would fit me.
Honestly, I don't think the teacher knew the answer herself. She was just wandering aloud, asking one of human's biggest questions.
I guess the question refers to what defines us. And what word would I possibly choose to define me completely? I mean, is there even a word that can have so much meaning?
SO much meaning as to completely wrap what a person IS? it's purpose, it's cause, it's reason to be, it's beliefs, everthing? I don't think so.
If who we are, is really what defines us, then we are our actions. We are what we do. Because the question of who we are I think refers to who we are not just to ourselves, but who we are to the world, and the world only sees what we alow them to see. What we do and what we say.
We are the mixture of our expiriences, of our thoughts, of our words, of our achievements and failures.. All those things, define us. All those things led us to where we are, how we think and what we want. If we would have no background, then we would truly be nothing. We wouldn't think a certain way. We wouldn't believe. We wouldn't mean anything to anybody.
Which is why it's so crucial that we portray what we are and not what others want us to be. Do we really want to be who others want, regardless of what's right and good both for the world AND ourselves? No. At the end, more than nothing, a man's sole and most important purpose is to find truth. Truth that some find through studying, through religion, through meditation...
But all those things are merely tools.Stuff that we use in order to understand the world, who we are and, WHY.

I believe I am the decisions I've made so far. I am, the path that I've created, with all its curves, rocks, changes, and end. I am who I chose to be. the actions I have done. the where, how, why, with whom..are just details. At the end, the world will judge me through my path. My legacy, what I have left behind, not the things I kept to myself.

"I have immortal longings in me"
WG

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