My family often calls me the radical. Radical in my decisions, mostly with change.
I am a person that adapts to every situation imaginable. I sometimes joke with myself thinking I might as well be a chamaleon. I can perfectly hang out and understand the emos of my school, the rockers, the nerds, the grown-ups tipe, the cougars.. All of them. I am everyone's friend. But that is, not because I agree with them in everything, because I don't, but because I am capable of putting on their shoes and see their perspective. Which is why my counselor says I'm a rational, 'cause in my head, I see thousands of different angles to every situation. Something that pushes me to make the decision of which view I believe the most in. And I don't hide it.
Being a suporter of the gay community, and seeing God as an idea of life rather than a purpose of life in a deeply catholic school has earned me the name of controversy. And I am like that with every aspect of my life.
I went from having long, golden, curly locks that went down to my waist; to having a short, pixie, cinnamon blond bob. I love change, and I'm not scared to face the unknown. Because I've always believed that we have nothing to loose, and therefore, there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel. You will always come out from every new expirience either with a big trophy or with a wiser brain. But never empty-handed.
We must try. Because if we don't we will expend the rest of our lives thinking: what if. What if I had done that? What would've happened?. Better to be at least expirienced right?
I think the key to everything in life lays in honesty. Honesty in what we want. In what we need. In what we have done. In what we feel. We have to face all this trues. And even if we are ambitious and very exigent with ourselves, then we must be equally capable to see, that sometimes, it's not our fault. Sometimes, we did all we could, but we happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Period.
Personally, the best things that have happened to me and changed my life are those that have been completely spontaneous, inexpected and new. Like this one time that I went with a group of Catholic Missionaries to help poor people. That is an expirience I will never in my life forget. It changed everything. It made me a less explosive, impulsive person. No one ever imagined me going to those trips. But, I felt like trying. So I packed, and went. No friends. No nothing. Just me, around all these religious fans.
Those words I keep repeating to my friend. See, she, like most us, is scared. Scared of something that neither she nor her friends have expirienced. She is afraid of being alone. She feels intimidated.
But fear is good. The fear that I once felt, crushing hard on my pride, was what impulsed me to be brave. To be courageous at all times. Besides, haven't we heard 'Renovate your life, and the universe will be yours'? A little exagerated, I know, but not false.
'And what if I try it, and then don't achieve?' She asked me. And so I told her 'If that happens, then it's because you didn't loose. You just ran out of time'.
Strange and comforting fact of life: you can get used to almost anything.
WG
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