First of all, I'm so so so so sorry for the lack of posts the last four days. Really, with the holidays coming, everything has been like a roller coaster. Buying gifts, family dinners, friend reunions, etc have stolen all of my free time.

I wanted to wish everyone the best holidays ever. The best christmas, and, the best wishes and hopes for next year. I don't think I will be able to blog for quite a long time. I hope I can, but honestly, I don't think so. I'm leaving for vacations on the 26. I return January 16. If I find time, I will blog. I sware.

I hope all of you are having a lot of fun and mostly giving back this christmas. Giving back love to your families and friends. Just, giving and receiving love. Simply, finding the happiness in front of us. And being grateful for all the things we have.

Don't have limitations for next year. You can either choose to live fenced in the boundaries you created, or choose to live crossing them. I advice you cross them. I advice you live as much as you can, to not regret, to not forget everything happens for a reason, that things untold are equal to unexisting, to not waste our times in nonsense, and to remember nothing is impossible and that we only live once.
Choose to be as good as you can. Don't settle for less than you deserve. Love, and love more.
Give thanks to all you think have helped you or made you better in any way, ask for help to those you admire and believe to be the best, and change who you can.
Forgive. This is the time of the year of forgiving and letting go. Of just saying , 'I love you, after all'. Don't hold grudges. Leave that for next year.

As for myself, I have to say, I love christmas. It is my favorite holiday. I just love the way the air feels, the ambient, the simply happy vibe of the people. I love decorated trees and houses, I love songs in stores, I love buying gifts for everyone and receiving them, I love lighting the fireplace and falling sleep with hot chocolate. Snow. The way people greet you all the time, and the way we all choose to forget our worries and responsabilities to just feel the moment. I love the way everything feels in general. Reuniting with family, and having sleepovers with old and new friends, is just amazing. Amazing how we forgive, love and rejoy over having the possibility to be together for yet another year.

This year, things have changed. It has been one full of unexpected news, new learnings, new beginings and new friends as well as for new philosophies and space for new things. Such as this blog. A year ago, I would have never found myself either having a blog nor writing the things I do. A year ago, everything was different. A year ago, I never realized the importance of rasing my voice. But now I do. And am so happy to be doing so. Even if there are only a few people reading, at least someone is. And it feels sooo good. Soo good to know, that I can come here and write every time I feel like it, and every time I'm looking for a safe haven. This blog is not all of me; but it is part of the process of creating myself. Sometimes, it represents not what I am but what I wish I were. It is a place for aspirations, expectations and faith. A place were nothing bad can happen, and were only good things are created.

I hope you have enjoyed reading it as much as I have enjoyed writing it.

Thanks for listening to what I have to say; and don't forget I'm always here in case you want to share something.

Merry Christmas, and happy new year;

WG

"Just A Reminder"

"If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances.
I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing else.
Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute.
If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dance; I would ride more merry-go rounds.

I would pick more daisies."

"We all love to instruct, though we can teach only what is not worth knowing"
- Because, the things that are worth knowing can only be properly taught by expirience and self awareness.

"If you were to give me forty such men, I never could be so happy as you. Till I have your dispossition, your goodness, I can never have your happiness"
- Attitude is everything in life.


"Neither duty, nor honour, nor gratitude have any possible claim on me"
- Nothing is can be binding when it comes to character. Not that sometimes it is not better to adhere to them nevertheless.


"Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure"
- The past is gone. Look only for teachings and joys. No regrets, no lookbacks.


"I was taught what was right, but I was not taught to correct my temper. I was given good principles, but left to follow them in pride and conceit"
- It is meaningless to know theory if you can't put it into practice.


"You taught me a lesson, hard indeed at first, but mostly advantageous. By you I was properly humbled. I came to you without a doubt of my reception. You showed me how insufficient were all my pretensions to please a woman worthy of being admired"
- Without admiration, there can never be true love.


"My object then was to show you, by every civility in my power, that I was not so mean as to resent the past"
- The appereance of forgetting and letting go can mean pride, as well as goodness.

"I am happier than even Jane; she only smiles, I laugh"

"She endeavoured to forget what she could not overlook"
- When we love someone so much, we rather pretend not to realize their faults or mistakes than actually facing the fact that they might not be so worthy of admiration.

"What praise is more valuable than that of an intelligent servant?"

"Gratitude, not merely for having once loved her, but for loving her still well enough to forgive all the petulance and acrimony of her manner in rejecting him, and all the unjust accusations accompanying her rejection"

"She respected, she eestemed, she was grateful to him, she felt a reak interest in his welfare; and she only wanted to know how far she whished that welfare to depend upon herself, and how far it would be for the happiness of both that she should employ the power, which her fancy told her she still possessed of bringing on the renewal of his addresses"

"Death"

Life is hash. Is tough. It hands in the test first, the lesson afterwards. But I can find no way in which I would be able to quit this world. Not under my decision at least.

Today something really bad happened. A girl my age committed suicide. She hung herself. Her parents were traveling, so her brother found her in the morning hanging from the roof when he was about to wake her up for school.
I had heard about suicides. I had read about them in newspapers. I had heard about people who had done it. But in all of those times, never had it happened to me that I was able to put a face and name to the person. Never had it happened that I remembered the girl walking past me and hearing my friend's stories about her...
I never kenw her. She was from other school. But one of my best friends, did knew her, and in fact, was one of her best friends too. I heard about her all the time. I had heard she had some issues with the boyfriend, alcochol and even heard something about drugs (which I do not know if it is true), but never had anyone specified the state of deep deppression or saddness this girl must have been in. And today when I heard about it, it hit me. It definately moved me. It got me thinking things like, why the hell someone my age would want to suicide? What must be happening to her-anyone- to get to that point? How could she have the courage to get a cord, make not, tie it to the ceiling, putting it around her neck and letting go? How?! I don't get it.
Apparently, the girl had already cut herself once. But still, how could she? I can't even start to imagine how bad and lonely she must had felt in order to do that.
I thought about how many times I make someone feel bad, either unconsiously or conciously. How often, I, without thinking, just choose not to be nice to someone because I think she is weird or ridiculously dramatic or whatever. When the truth is, I am nothing and have no right to do harm to anyone unprovocked, and I don't really know the story behind that person, nor what is really going on inside her head.
Truly, I can't say I know the specifics of this girl and her friends, because I don't, but I imagine it must have been quite similar. Deppressions that are so deep in order to make you kill yourself don't occur overnight. People must have seen something. They had too. But choose to do nothing. And hey, I'm not blaming, I'm like that at times. But that it is truly no one to blame doesn't mean it's not true, or that the facts weren't there. I think about maybe, how a little smile would've changed her mind. How maybe, a little gesture of 'I notice you', might have made her feel less lonely.

And still, I can't say I understand the girl. I can't say, knowing myself, that being in her situation I would've done the same, because I can't remotely imagine myself doing that under any circumstance. But I guess she could've said the same months ago too. Really, we just need to start appreciating our lives more. We need to think that suffering is only a proof of how alive we are. How vivid and full of life and emotions we are. There is absolutely nothing that can't be overcomed or solved. Nothing. You name the problem. Drug addiction? how many ex-drug addicts aren't alive and with a happy family now a days?. Nerdy? how about Bill Gates? don't think you could be him?. Lonely? who more lonely than the shipwrecked?, and still, he did it. Loveless? guess what? who hasn't been lonely once?!.

Guess what I'm trying to tell you is don't even think about doing it under those excuses. Because really, they can all be overcomed. Just with patience, perseverance and courage. For those of you who have thought about it, just focus about investing that same huge amount of courage needed to end your lives in making sure you defeat those fears and difficulties.
And for those of you who haven't thought about it, try to be more sensitive towards those who are overly sad or mad, because if they are like that, it's probably because they are undergoing hard times.
Only someone as bad as Hitler has true reasons to end his life. I know each of you is better and has a lot to offer.

WG

"Even More"

I looove all of this pictures.. They are like part of me or something. They are so alluring, and so beautiful.. each one of them has its own charm, secret, mystery and sexiness. I have chosen the ones I believe show my personality the best. But there are so much more pictures like these I'd like to show to you.. currently, my collection of these pictures has a total of 1,500 members, and rising.

They somehow represent my idea of my alter ego. And not just that, but they are perfect when you are looking for inspiration to dress, write, say...

I print my favorite ones and paste them in the wall in front of my bed. It looks really cool. My whole bedroom is white, and very cozy. So I have like paintings I have done everywhere and this pictures. Also, I have a spot for my books. Drawers to put crap in and even a place for my collection of porcelain dolls (much much smaller, just 10). Then I have a place where I store my magazines. Finally, my favorite place in my whole bedroom, is a spot I have in a far right corner where I place my shoes. I arrange them in color, heel size, platforms, sandals, flats and boots... They look dreamy placed together.

WG